An Introduction to My Life

It's been 8 months since I've returned from school. It's been 3 months since my last job. It's been 2 days since my last shower. I am a waste of oxygen. I use men as a shield, a protection, from what I really am; alone. Over the years my friends have come and gone, but one thing in my life remains constant - I relate to no one. I am fat, obbsessive, completely overbearing at times, but most of all I am miserable. There's nothing here for me in this town, and yet, I cannot bring myself to leave. Though there is the occasional offer, job oppurtunity, and luring..I just won't go. I have 3 adults and a toddler as roomates. Things at home always remain interesting. My phone doesn't ring, except for the occasional night when someone needs a drink. I am happy to oblige, because what else am I supposed to do? I look for love in all of the wrong places, and always find unhappiness and discontent instead. Am I really this miserable? It's disgusting, and it's wrong, and suprisingly, I don't feel like offing myself just yet. Maybe there is hope for me yet. I don't know. I am the Queen of giving out advice and never taking my own. I've become jaded with this world, and everyone in it. My own mother hates me. Could things really get any worse?